by Gabriele Gzimailaite


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Not everyone will read this, probably because it's gonna look long and boring. But oh well, thanks to those who do. You know, I've been having loads of thought lately. My followers are growing, but so are other bloggers followers. And that makes me wonder, will I ever reach the point where blogging becomes my full time job? Don't get me wrong, when I started blogging four years ago, i didn't even really understand that you can get free clothes, let alone earn money from this. It was simply a hobby and a place for me to share my thoughts and millions of pictures that I took. Instagram wasn't born yet, so I was taking loads of pictures with my camera and I took it with me everywhere I went. To parties, to college. I bet people used to think 'ah this one again with her camera' haha. I was just preparing myself for Instagram I guess! lol (old blog here) In the first two years of blogging I received an email from a Chinese company and they offered to send me an item that costs no more than $10. I chose a skirt, and believe me, when I say that I was so freaking happy! I couldn't believe that I got something for free. Then I forgot about it and kept blogging not expecting anything from it. Then after another year I received a few bits and bobs from companies but nothing exciting. Last spring, in 2014 I saw Company magazine hosting blogger awards and decided to join. I asked people to nominate me, and guess what. I was in the final 10 for the 'Fashion Blog of the year in association with Missguided' category. I was so excited, Missguided sent me two dresses and a pair of heels, and slowly more and more companies started to contact me. And to this date, it keeps getting better. If I told my 17-year old self that in a few years I would be getting Michael Kors watches and Prada sunglasses for a blog post, I wouldn't have believed it. Now I obviously understand that bloggers can make a living from what we do. I am still at the 'early' stage even though I have been blogging for nearly 4 years now. This is what I'm going to say to the new bloggers out there, because I get so many questions on how to 'start receiving free stuff'. It doesn't happen over night, you know? If you are doing it just for the free clothes and shoes, then its not gonna work. You have to love what you do. My biggest dream is to earn enough money to pay my rent and live through the month from blogging. And you know I'm not in this entirely for that, I started with no idea about this, and have been doing so for 4 years. It's not a hobby anymore, it's just what I do. On a day off, I call a friend, we go out and shoot content for my blog. It's a part of who I am now, and it gets to me sometimes. Sometimes I am so sick of it all, I think how long can I go on? One day I am so proud of myself and I am so happy with the amount of people that are interested and follow my daily life. And another day I would look at other bloggers with 200K followers and think, why is someone interested in me?

the skirt

I see these bloggers, their followers growing quicker than you can imagine, and I just constantly have these questions in my head. 'How can I stand out from the rest of the bloggers in the UK?' 'Should I dye my hair a crazy colour?' 'Hmm no, I should stay the way I am' 'Will people like me for who I am? Im just a plain looking brunette'. I can't tell you how many times a week I have these thoughts, like really, how do I stand out? I don't. All these bloggers have nice hair, cool coloured hair, and tattoos. And little old me is too scared of these things. I would absolutely love to dye my hair a ashy white colour. I would. There was a day when I said I'm doing it. But my hair is so weak, if I bleach it I will probably won't have any left! hehe. But you know what, I think I stand out because of who I am. I have a crazy personality, that's one of the things I love about myself. And you know what? This 70 year old granddad in a bar told me so! (just last night lol).
devil child hehe

You know, I often think about a nose job. Well not too much now, but I used to when I was a teenager. I hated my nose. I couldn't even sit facing sideways next to someone, I would always try to face them. I have a long nose, it comes from my dad. (he gives me this nose and then leaves my mother when I'm 3 years old and my sister is a newborn grrrrr!!!!). I am sure we all have things that we really HATE about our selves. Well I hated my nose and my teeth. Funnily enough, I was bullied for my forehead in school! hahaha! I was bullied on social media for never smiling, they would say that I don't have any teeth! lol that's so crazy but I just wouldn't smile in general. In the UK we have free dental treatment until we turn 19, so I was going to an orthodontist. But the thing is, when you make an appointment, you have to wait 6months to be seen by them. The day would finally come, I would go, they would make up some bullshit, and tell me to make another appointment. Another 6 months to wait. Then after waiting all that time, I would go, and they would say 'you have a hole in your tooth, get it fixed and come again'. Another 6 months till the next appointment. I used to leave the orthodontist and cry my eyes out, I have never cried that way for any other thing in my life. I would get home and go straight to bed, and cry myself to sleep, even if it was 1pm and sunny outside! Then finally one day I went there when I was already 18 or 19 and they said 'ohhh we can see that you already had a retainer, we can't give you braces for free. If you want free treatment we would have to do a jaw operation (They would cut my skin, pick it up from my chin up, break my jaw, place it how it needs to be and saw my skin back on.) DOES THAT SOUND NORMAL? God no!!! I cried so much when I left, I never cry in front of doctors. My parents finally said, let's go private. So I found a Lithuanian orthodontist and have been going there to get my braces. I have them off now, and there is still a lot to do. And that requires a lot of money, so I have to wait, and save up. But at least my teeth are straight now. And regarding my nose, I see all these bloggers getting boob jobs and nose jobs, and I have nothing at all bad to say about that. They wouldn't do it for fun you know, we all have things we are unhappy with, and think about it constantly. Like I was with my nose my whole teenage life. But since I got a boyfriend I kind of forget about it. I don't really ever think about it anymore. I am not even scared of someone taking a picture of me from the side. I would love to get a nose job, don't get me wrong. But it would make a big difference and that's what I am kinda scared of. I have a long nose, so obviously they would have to just chop it off. It would be SOOOO noticeable. Plus, do I really want to show 14-15 year old girls that are following me that it's ok to get these things done? Then they grow up looking for things to 'fix' on them selves because we show them that it's ok to do it. And we show them that we can only be beautiful and happy if we get operations done to look good. I don't know, it's a crazy topic that makes my brain hurt. lol Maybe in the future. But I think I am nearly at that stage where I am happy with myself and don't even care about negative comments anymore. I went through so much online bullying when I started blogging because it wasn't 'a thing' in Lithuania, and no one really understood it. People were like 'why are you showing off what you have, and what clothes you buy, you're so stupid and ugly'. It just makes me laugh when someone makes a mean comment now. It doesn't hurt anymore, it just shows what kind of an asshole that person is that left the comment.

Are you still here? Haven't fallen asleep yet? Good. You know what annoys me? That I don't really have a summer. If I wasn't working right now. No, if I didn't have to pay rent I would spend my summers travelling, having fun in Lithuania and just enjoying life. I am the type of person who needs to be wild and free. Like a lion or something. It hurts me from the inside that I have to work weekends in the summer. And guess what, it's August already and summer is nearly over. I hate work. Well I don't hate it but you know what I mean, I hate that I have to work. Obviously, we all have to. But I just want to literally fly to an exotic country and explore the jungle, or sleep under the stars. I work 4 days instead of the full time 5 because as I say 'I prefer to have a life than money'. I really do. I need to do things, see something new, I cannot be stuck at work all the time. When I study and get student loans I only work 2 days a week, but now working 4/5 is slowly killing me. One would say that I am an adult now and I need to work and shut up. But I cant, I want to see the world. If I didn't have university or RENT PAYMENTS I would literally buy a one way ticket and wouldn't come home for 6months. Some people won't understand that feeling, of wanting to explore but some will know exactly what I'm talking about. I am consumed by wanderlust.
one of my favourite pictures in my whole life

Sorry for such a long post and thank you if you read it. I just carry so much on my chest sometimes that I just need to write it down. And I want to share it this time. I don't know if you've seen but I entered this competition recently. I didn't want to tell anyone because I feel like if I do, I jinx it and it doesn't happen. But I needed to share the link for likes on my picture so now everyone knows. Basically I think I will be in the semi-finals, because they pick top 12 by the number of likes and I am at number 3 at the moment. And entries close tomorrow. So I'll get to go and shoot an outfit next week with the other girls, that's so fun and I am so thankful if you voted for me. I have been sharing on facebook, asking my friends to share, even my manager shared it! And I even made a competition up so my followers can win things by liking the picture so that really increased the likes too. *edited* Grrr I can see that some people bought the likes on instagram and it makes me so annoyed, anyone could do that... But Im staying true to myself. I mean, you cant really get 2000likes with 600 followers. I wish they checked on this in the competition. But anyway, I don't even want to think about winning. A trip to New York is one of the prizes, and NY is one of the places I've visited that left such a weird feeling inside of me. I miss that city more than I miss any other place I've ever visited. I feel like I've lived there or something, I keep thinking of going but it's just so expensive for a student to plan a trip like that. There are many stylish girls in the competition, and the top 12 are all so different in style, it's going to be tough. I don't know, maybe I won't even make it to the finals, but if I am a semi finalist and I get to meet the team and all the other girls, I will be very happy. That's a great connection in my book to meet the team of Stylist magazine. There is still time to vote, so if you've actually read everything I wrote then please click here , choose 'popular' and like my picture. I remember once a girl I don't know told me, that I was born under a lucky star, let's see if she's right!  

Gabby x

Bikini top SO NOIRE


  1. Perskaičiau! Ir labai ačiū Tau, kad nepatingėjau šitiek parašyti. Buvo labai įdomu ir naudinga. Žiauriai įkvėpei ir privertei susimastyti :) Kiekvienas turim savų trūkumų, kažkokių dalelių savęs kurių tiesiog nekenčiam.

    Aš vis dar nekenčiu savo ausų ir žandikaulio, kuriam reikia operacijos. Bet situacija ta pati, reikia taupyti, nes už dyka tokių dalykų niekas nedaro..Tad labai tikiuosi, kad kada nors gyvenime susitvarkysiu šią bėdą - ne dėl grožio, bet dėl sveikatos.

    Žodžiu, šaunuolė tu! Kurk, derink, fotkink, rašyk, tau tai sekasi puikiai! Sėkmės konkurse, laikau sukryžiuotus pirštus ir einu dar balsuot :)

  2. Kaip fainai, kad pasidalinai! Kažkur esu girdėjusi, kad turbūt Žemėje nėra nė vieno žmogaus, kuris būtų visiškai patenkintas savo nosimi - tokia vat įdomi veido vieta... Aš irgi nesu labai patenkinta, bet kaip ir tu tiesiog stengiuosi susitaikyti ir priimti save tokią, kokia esu. Juk tai svarbiausia, ar ne?

    O dėl išvažiavimo ir kelionių visiškai pritariu ir suprantuuu! Atrodo pati irgi norėčiau viską mesti ir tiesiog išvažiuoti į kokią Kiniją mokyti vaikų anglų kalbos visus metus ar tiesiog šiaip padaryti kažką crazy. But here comes responsabilities...

    Anyway, šaunuolė, nesustok. Rašyk ir kurk, nes tavo deriniai su kiekvienu post'u verčia alpti vis labiau. :) xo

  3. Labai daug geru ir teisingu minciu issakei...Is tiesu, geriau tiesiog gyventi ir megautis gyvenimu nei "gyventi darbe", tikintis kad "kai uzdirbsiu..., tai jau tada..."
    Taigi.. I prefer to have a life than money too :)

  4. Ir visiškai, nei vieną sekundę nebuvo nuobodu skaityti, kaip tik labai įdomu ir net nesinorėjo, kad baigtųsi tekstas :)
    Gabriele, esi šaunuolė. Seku tave jau metus ir nerealiai patinka Tavo blogas :) manau daugeliui jis ir taip kaip man patinka ir nepraleidžia nei vieno įrašo :)
    O dėl trūkumų, mes visi jų turime, tik arba susitaikome arba nesusitaikome ir griaužiame save visą gyvenimą :) Esi graži tokia kokia esi!

  5. Labai įdomus postas, skaičiau ir norėjau daugiau.. Gabriele, esi šaunuolė! Visiškai tau pritariu dėl visu tavo minčiu.. Ir jei nesi patenkinta savimi, prisimink, kad pasaulyje yra žmoniu kuriems daug blogiau, ir kurie su viskuo taikosi lygiai taip pat kaip ir mes.. Aš taip pat esu nepatenkinta savo nosyte, tačiau labiausiai savo balta ir problematiška oda.. Kai matau žmones su apnuogintomis kojomis ir rankomis, kaip nuostabiai atrodo ju netobula, tačiau įdegusi oda.. Man būna labai skaudu.. Kai žinau kad nieko pakeisti negaliu ir esu tokia, kokia gimiau.. Na bet dabar išmokstu su tuo taikytis ir pamilt savo problematišką odą. Pagalvoju, kad turiu kitų pliusų, kurių kiti taip pat pavydi ir graužia save dėl to.. Labai smagu, kad pasidalinai savo mintimis, kai pamatai, kad visi turi dalykų kurių taip pat nekenčia bet randa stiprybės su tuo susitaikyti, stiprybės atrandi ir savyje. Linkiu nepasiduoti neigiamoms bangoms iš negatyvių žmonių! XO

  6. Viskas susiskaitė taip greitai! Iš tiesų suprantu tave tikrai puikiai. Bet žinai dėl išvaizdos, tu man kaip tik atrodai tokia išskirtinė(iš gerosios pusės) !♥ Tavo blog'as nuostabus, esi talentinga! Aš taip pat rašau blog'ą ir kartais atrodo, kad viskas ką rašau taip kvaila, bet šį kartą kažkaip vėl įkvėpei nepasiduot. Esi man pavyzdys! :)xx

  7. It's a great and interesting read.. and what's a blog for if not for getting things off of your chest, right?

    I'm not gonna lie.. if it were possible for me to live off my social media things, I'd be very happy! It's not that I don't like my job (I love science and engineering!), but like you.. I'd rather not work all 5 days so that I have more time to do the other stuff that I enjoy. Travelling, making music, photography/videography, fashion. Ah well, I guess in these times.. I'm also glad I actually have a job. ;-)

    Anyhoo.. I can also relate to the whole nose-
    job thing.. I really don't like my nose.. and that's why I never have photos/videos of me from the side. Only frontal or backside photos.. and perhaps at a small angle. But that's it. I do have enough money for a nose-job.. but I'm also hesitant.. since it will change the way I look.

    Lots of stuff to think about! Thanks for the post! :)

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